🎹 🤥 the lie I believed for 37 years {video}


I found old footage of my 1989 Cliburn audition.

It inspired me to do something a little different.

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I recorded a message to her. To 27-year-old me, about to walk into that room.

Here are highlights of what I told her.

She thought it was all or nothing. Get into the Cliburn, or the career she'd worked her whole life for wasn't even possible.

That's what she believed in every bone in her body.

I know how devastated she was when she didn't get in. She thought that was the end.

She didn't know it wasn't the end.

It was the beginning of something she hadn't even dreamed up yet. 🤷‍♀️

I posted a clip of this on Instagram and wasn't ready for the response. It currently has 33,413 views.

What got me wasn't the numbers. It was what people took from it.

Not getting into the Cliburn wasn't a verdict on my playing or my talent. It was just how brutal that field is.
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I couldn't see that at 27. I only saw the door that shut. 🚪
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I think about how many times I've carried some version of this belief since.

The moments that actually shaped my life weren't the ones I staked everything on. They were the ones that didn't go the way I'd planned.

🎼 A tiny practice experiment for you​
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Think of one upcoming performance, audition, or even just a hard passage you're working on. Notice if you've quietly decided it's all or nothing.

Then ask yourself what actually happens if it isn't. 🤔

Usually, not what you think, right?
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Play On,
Lisa Spector
Piano Practice Strategist
Founder,
Piano Ninja Tricksters Club​
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​ps I also told 27-year-old me one other thing. Something about contact lenses. 👀 You'll have to watch to find out what.
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pps Want to see more of the 1989 Cliburn footage? Reply and let me know.

Lisa Spector, Piano Ninja

Juilliard graduate helping dedicated adult pianists who love challenging repertoire practice less while learning more.

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